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Wow... [02 Apr 2009|10:52pm]
[ mood | interested ]

I can't believe my last post was three years ago. One of my friends recently started a blog and I'm thinking.. hmmm... is it possible? Is it still there?

And here it is! It's like an archive of my teen years. Very very interesting. It looks like there are SO many new features on this thing too.


I'm going to go look around!

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STUFF! [06 Oct 2006|06:28pm]
[ mood | busy ]

Well, I've been very busy lately to say the least. The Pillowman (show I designed) is finally over YAY! So now I can devote whats left of my life to piano practice and halloween costumes.. and eBay.

Just wanted to post and say hi to everyone. Keeping in touch with me on Facebook is the most convenient thing now. So, add me as your friend! YAY! :)


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Happy 4th! [04 Jul 2006|11:49pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

Hello all. Came home from upstate today.. i want to go back!! I start my job at BC tomorrow tho.. my sisters actually doing the program so at least I will have someone there that I know besides the teachers. I hope it goes well and the kids enjoy it.

btw... does anyone else besides me think that the coca cola blak is absolutely HORRIFIC?? I thought it would be like a manhattan special but its NOT AT ALL! It is just GROSS. There seems to be no coffee in it at all in fact. just a teeny bit to make the cola part taste awful. it really reminds me of some medicine i took when I had an ear infection at about 6 years old. :-P

anyway, that was my rant. took my meds so im falling asleep.. nitey nite all! :)

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Pillowman [05 Jun 2006|05:33pm]
[ mood | distressed ]

I just finished reading the Pillowman. It has taken me almost two weeks to get through a like 100 page play. Of course this is what the director wants to do next semester and that I will have to analyze and design.

It is the most horrifying thing, ever. I mean, it is well written- and the twists are interesting, and stuff. But everything is.. just.. so HORRIBLE. I mean I don't even want to think about it. I just want it to be like I read it, and that's it, never think about it again.. rather than spend an entire SEMESTER thinking about nothing BUT it.

I don't know what to do. Should I tell Beckie I can't stand it and lose my chance to design a show with her? Should I just try to bear it.. and have to read it over and over and sit through it over and over..


awful awful

I would not wish anyone to see this play


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tons o' work- but not as much as before!! [25 Mar 2006|12:21am]
[ mood | hopeful ]

Well, the show I was assistant designing for is OVERRRRRRR YAY! Mimi is coming to pick up the rest of the costumes for THAT show tomorrow.. and they will be all OUT OF THE HOUSE and out of my mind!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So now it's trying to catch up on actual homework... SOO much work in the design classes I'm taking. I'm taking less credits than usual, and I can't even handle that!! It's scary// and annoying.. My only solace for 8 weeks was reading in bed late at night with all the lights off because everyone was sleeping. But hopefully soon I can start doing stuff again.. like eBay!! I MISS IT! Stuff that I do on my own that I enjoy. That is if I don't get involved in the Crucible.. ><


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How adorable are the WE percussionists?? [10 Jan 2006|10:41pm]
[ mood | excited ]



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[29 Dec 2005|11:55pm]
[ mood | listless ]

Your Band Name is:

The BBQ Mamas

Hope everyone had a good holiday!
Have two finals next week cause they were cancelled cause of the transit strike.

Torrid is closing July 2nd. It's a weird feeling. I'll miss it terribly but I'm also terribly relieved because with the store goes the pain associated with it (hopefully..) Anyway, don't really want to talk about it.. still so sad.. and ANGRY...

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something i learned today [04 Nov 2005|11:11pm]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

There is a key change in Bright Eye's Lover I Don't Have to Love that gives me the chills. I learned that it's Am to E after sitting at the keyboard for like.. 15 mins.. coolz

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[24 Oct 2005|10:12pm]
[ mood | cold ]

Your costume is a Gothic Ballerina!

What Should Your Halloween Costume Be?
brought to you by Quizilla

nahhh. I'm going to be the Corpse Bride. My sister is going to be Victoria. Been sewing nonstop between the costume shop o fun at school and halloween ive been busy. soooo tired. dont wanna go to school tomorrow.

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[21 Sep 2005|11:07am]
[ mood | awake ]

Most peculiar dream last night. i woke up in like.. a real awkward position.
anyway, apparantly people were being murdered at kathleen's dorm. it was like.. kerry.. and some other peoples names who i dont remember but who i seemed to be familiar with in the dream. but i remember visiting her before the first murder and going into the bathroom and finding one of the girls (short, kinda looked like francesca) drunk out of her mind in the shower. sleeping or something. w/e all i wanted to do was leave after that (apparantly was staying with her for a night or whatever). anyway, after i leave the first murder happens. i dont remember much of it but i remember being so scared in the dream. the girl either was pushed off the roof or she was shot.. i think it was the roof first. i also remember climbing onto it and realizing that i couldnt do it (apparantly we had to evacuate or something). i remember it was so steep and made of like.. broken wood or somthihng.. very shredded..and also during it i feel so alone the whole time. like i cant find anyone to talk to or even just see that i know. later on in the dream we're somehow in italy in the airport or something. theres like a carnival or soemthign going on.. maybe it was halloween? and theres this ride thing that theyre testing before they let people on it.. but theyre testing it with regular people. and theyre falling and stuff. and im yelling at erin (?) to not let them do that that we dont need anyone else to be killed, but she doesnt care. and im just watching and cant do anything. its like almost an arial view. like im looking out a tall window. anyway. i remember i have my digital camera. but i want to find my parents or SOMEONE and let them know whats going on. so i go down the escalator and just look around and feel completely lost. i remember that everyone speaks italian here so im not going to have an easy time. i finally ask someone if theres someplace where i can call someone and she shows me to a pay phone. i find that i left my digital camera right by it. but it costs money to use the phone and i have none. i think about calling collect but i really dont want to. then i remember. duh. i have my cell phone. so i call my moms cell. shes like.. ooo i got stuck doing the Field Show (???). so i apparantly remember where that is and go down the escalater. i see a large pool of water and jump in. apparantly this field show is in the form of blitzball. i see scott swimming and he tells me that the drummers have to be on the bottom of the pool. theres also some big foam thing in the middle that is blocking the way to the top and to air. i keep thinking oh great, more people are going to die now. but scott doesnt seem to think its that bad.. and i guess i dont either. but im still really nervous and upset about all of this. and that was about it. wish i could rememeber more of it because now it just seems stupid. o well.

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Tres Moi [12 Jul 2005|10:54pm]
[ mood | relaxed ]

gURL.comI took the "Constellation" quiz on gURL.com
I am...

Do some people call you indecisive, while others call you careful? Do you want it all, all at once? You might identify with Capricornus--the "goat-fish" constellation. Read more...

What constellation are you?

SOOO relaxing to be upstate. I cant believe I have to go home and back to work tomorrow. so awful. so relaxed. ...
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Summer [07 Jul 2005|01:15pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

So I don't really like the summer as it is but no school is wonderful. But we lost two people at work (one was fired, one left to become a manager at the body shop) so now I'm working.. a LOT. And as much as I really love it... I really really miss the country. We missed July 4th up there. I've NEVER been in brooklyn on july 4th.. EVER. So depressing. we're supposed to go up this weekend (after my shift on sat), but i have to turn in an assignment for my online class- at school. i went yesterday and no ones there. i HATE THIS SCHOOL. no one cares about the students at all. we're supposed to be able to turn in anything monday tuesday or wednesday from 10-12. NO ONE WAS THERE. and if we're late we're supposed to turn it in to the biology office. theyre on vacation until stupid july 18th. its so rediculous. i called the biology office and got Bally Total Fitness.

kathleen got her adenoids out yesterday finally.. shes in tres pain. but hopefully ill get to spend some more time with her this week- until we (hopefully) go away and get out of this CITY! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH


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bizarro dream [28 Apr 2005|11:56am]
[ mood | awake ]

i dreamt that i married the prince dude from beauty and the beast.. but i dont know if it was really him or the guy that played him on broadway or something.. all i know is that it came out of the blue but i really felt i loved him.. anyway.. we had this big ceremony on a stage and the band was there in the pit with corn conducting.. i took some picture somehow of the lighting dimming down at the end and it came out to be this beautiful image that was .. not really distorted but just the outlines basically in a sunset-like color. i showed it to my mom and she thought it was gorgeous. i tried to find the outline of myself reaching over and pressing the button to take the picture.. i thought i saw it but i didnt think it was really me. after we were married i still lived at home apparantly.. but it wasnt MY home.. it was a different house.. but everytime i looked at my husband he had this biohazard mask on.. but i still looked at him adoringly. i remember looking up at my big house and there were seals or penguins or something falling from the sky.. i dont remember what exactly they were.. but i think it was my brothers fault.. we kept .. like going back in time to be able to catch them all. i think they were falling off the roof. anyway, then we were talking about moving into our own place and actually living together, when he tells me that he went bankrupt or something.. in any case he has no money.. im like.. why did you marry me NOW. i dont know what he said.. but he wanted to take down my old house and build an apartment house or something so that my family and me and him could both live there but in separate spaces.. it didnt really make sense at the time either and i didnt want to. i think thats all i can remeber.

anyway.. lately i keep having dreams of coulter and the play, and corn and the band.. i miss it so much. i dreamt a few nights ago that we were having tryouts for a new play where there were 2 female leads.. and i remember i sang really well.. but i got the part as the shadow (literally the shadow) of the second female lead.. but i was just so happy to be back at a rehearsal that i didnt care.

alritey thats it for now i suppose

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ahhhhhhhh the love [20 Apr 2005|01:09pm]
[ mood | enthralled ]

Saw Garbage again last night.. omg they are so incredibly amazing as ever. better even than last time. shirley looks sooo gorgeous with her hair back long again.. and she still has SOOO MUCH ENERGY.. i could listen to that adorable scottish accent for EVER. it seemed soo short though.. but .. oooo i love love LOVE THEM SOO MUCH

the message-board is gone and i have nowhere else to discuss my garbage feelings .. sooo the LJ gets stuck with it! :)

highlights so i do not forget:
Shirley taking a pink feather boa from a girl in the audience and doing her signature performance with it around the glittering red mic stand.
The fact that they were sooo incredibly happy to be back in new york because yesturday, she sed, it was the 10th anniversary since they first played there in 1995.. in america.. she said it was "the american dream".. they were all sooo happy!
shirley going to steve and being like "am i embarassing you?" and him nodding and her going "YESSSSSS!"
Her red heels! And then her kicking them off in the second song and doing the set barefoot for 30 minutes in just her lil fishnets.. until someone got her a pair of flat red boots.. and ooohh what she was wearing! gorgeous black minidress with a COMPLETELY opened back.. and a large belt around it.. looked soooooooo gorgeous..
Everyone bowing down to her as she sang "bow down to me"
"theres someone incredibly special in the audience tonight.. and her name is deborah harry" everyone screamed and i almost died!!!!!!!!!!! Never got to see her or meet her but still wonder where she was and what she thought!!!!!!!!!!
her introducing everyone at the end!! "and because im just so completely self obsessed i have to introduce myself.. my name is shirley ann manson.. and im the lead singer in band called garbage"
her coming in wrong during Cherry Lips and just saying "oh well!" and having the audience sing!

ahhhhhhhhhh sospira!!!!!!!!!!
how do i love thee?

i really am still not feeling well though so I will add more later if i can remember..

i dont even want to listen to the album because i dont want to get the live sound out of my head!!!!
have a good day, all! And may you oneday experience something that will make you feel the same way as Garbage does for me.


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i never saw any of those movies [20 Mar 2005|01:14pm]
[ mood | grumpy ]


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zzzzzzzzz [26 Feb 2005|11:39pm]
[ mood | groggy ]

so exhausted from work today..

just coming on to say hello to all.

waiting for garbage's new cd to come out (APRIL 11!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) and requesting their new single on the radio. i still have not gotten an mp3 of it tho.. anyone have one???????????????????????

despise school more than ever. what else is new, anyway? just realizing what a pathetic, unfulfilled life i am leading.. or.. not really leading.. going nowhere.


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just making sure my account is still active [06 Jan 2005|05:31pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

Hello all, hope you had a lovely new year. i havent written because, mainly, nothing is going on in my life right now. i started my intersession class yesturday, but really thats about it. so far i still have my job, altho im afraid that this saturday will be the end :( but i dont really know, not to mention my ebay business. i have officially made my 10,000th dollar! its supremely exciting.. well. not really. anyway, im just spaced out from waking up really early and going to bed like its still christmas week.. sigh.. hoping your life is more fun, happy and exciting.


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oo new format [04 Nov 2004|05:18pm]
[ mood | blank ]

I havent been on in such a long time i never even saw the new format of the update page!

oo so the election is over (i couldnt vote, my bdays the 12th) and the world is slowly crumbling as a result.. scott made a good point yesturday- the draft.. bush wants to bring it back.. he got me really scared.. i couldnt bear to see any of my friends or my brother in 6 years sent away.. my mom says she'd move us to canada, no questions asked, no hesitation. scott sed he'd go to australia.. but i dont want to leave ny.. we'll all be so far away from everything we know.. ack.. and all cause of those stupid bushlovers.

anyway.. just posting that the wind ensemble site is officially up: www.bcwindensemble.org
Go visit it! It's corny as all heck but its my first website attempt! Let me know what you think and stuff.

oh. news: my ebay account has been suspended because of "search manipulation". this has led me to be more depressed than ever. i have like nothing in my life.. my business was the only think i had that i really enjoyed and now its gone until nov. 25th or LATER. i tried fighting it but they dont care at all.

gotta finish the coulter costumes for arsenic. hes going to kill me if i havent finished the black dresses by saturday. ill prolly be at rehearsal tomorrow.. ack! I need to make melisa the copy of the cd.. and i gotta email don@nyclarinets.com for russian christmas music.

despite my pathetic existance i still have stuff to do..



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bizarre dream [04 Oct 2004|02:40pm]
[ mood | pensive ]

i had a dream that mr. corn was going to give me some info to put on the website. so he wrote me a letter. he mentioned for some odd reason that he changed his name a few years ago because he was embarrassed by his old name: Mickey... and never told anyone that.. but for some reason felt like confiding in me right then????? Mickey Corn.. now thats interesting....

just bizarre i tell ya...


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[26 Sep 2004|07:21pm]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

sooo nothing very exciting going on. i dont like school. so lonely and bored and miserable. went to the mall today- thats always fun. got a few new mangas and some clothes. going to start my princess fiona halloween costume soon- almost got everything i need at joann's fabrics today. i miss the country. going to start taking piano lessons friday just in case i wanna major in music. hopefully ill learn how to play "to zanarkand" finally. that would be nice...

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